the unbelievable stretch of time

yes this is a blog post and yes it has been a long time- but 'tis my blog for a reason, can post/not post at will and even if no one in the world sees it, it's nice to have a forum where your thoughts can run through a sieve into this little white text box and leave my head

- Japan....my god, been watching the videos, daring rescues, destruction from the waves, houses, towns, people washed away by nature. I've been saying this for a time, I do think at some point, the world is destined for a true cataclysmic event. Nature has never been more harsh than the last decade to us, event after event keeps occurring, it's frightening. But where does it come from? our misuse of the resources given to us when we were put/arrived here. Was this a test? when mankind was given this hunk of rock, were we put here as a science experiment to see if we would flourish or fail? this is all abstract and large in scope, i may even sound like a crazy person, but i think all of us have these thoughts from time to time.

- my younger brother called me last night, he's shipping off to Afghanistan as we speak. He told me in detail his requirements when he goes there last time he came to visit. They go to villages, set up a vast network of resources, whether it's clothes, food, running water, electricity, training, etc. and slowly ween the people of this village into being able to provide for themselves with the tools given. They also keep it safe and themselves safe from enemy fire or Taliban propaganda. It's a good thing they do. I have long thought why are innocent Americans still involved in this scenario? I'd much rather see my brother over in Japan, providing aid for those so many who have had it taken from them through no fault of their own, yet he remains in a country we have pretty much taken over since the last guy was in office. Obama at first talked of pulling out, yet nothing has happened. My faith in government is weakened yet again. But i think my brother is doing something good, all the men that go over there and help like that. Question is: When is it enough? You could go on doing that kind of service until the end of days and never complete your task. oh well- speaking of Obama, this is beyond his control, in most regards, but the rising price of gas should be a concern to him and all government officials- it's something that affects every single American, we need it to go anywhere, work, retail, grocery, hospitals, yet it seems it's regarded as less than important. It's draining money my family could use for much more valuable things every single day. I"m getting more and more sickened by the structure of every day life and the value of money in it. My family, we're not concerned with money, having loads of it, fighting over an extra million, as the NFL is, greedy ass people. We overpay our actors and athletes and politicians while we, the masses, are way underpaid or out of work, having to fight to fill the gas tank up. This has become a rant, but god damn it, it gets old.

- as i don't want this all to feel negative, or complain the whole time, my daughter is much older now,a year older in fact since i last wrote here. We had a fun time the last few nights- Savannah and Nicole have "dance parties" and i was privy to watch one, catching a few minutes on camera, haha. Savannah loves "paparazzi" by Lady Gaga- i previewed the music video online to see if appropriate for children- hell no it isn't. But we read some stories last night too, my brother Jake got her this huge classic children's book for xmas and we've already decimated it, she liked the Billy Goats Gruff, Thumbelina, and 3 Little pigs.

- See "Monster" it's a very thought provoking and intense movie,
- back to work, be at peace world