this really has been one long day, and i'm not just saying that, feels like an extremely long day

hello blog-ites, don't know if that even means anything...

well it's been 24 hours since we found out about nicole's skin cancer feels so surreal to say that, besides being so tired and red-eyed, i've been fighting back tears today too, so much my eyes feel like a desert right now, so dried out. she's doing well with it though, can tell she's ready to break though, she almost did several times yesterday. we're just being strong and holding on right now.

nicole's brother has now moved in with us. it's a long story, overall, my feelings towards it are pretty okay. he's a good guy, got a raw deal from his ex- left him stranded with a lot of bills and the apartment and he really had no where else to turn. He's a busy guy too so probably won't see much of him, but i would want nicole to do the same for my brother if he needed somewhere to stay so i'm being supportive.

this sunday, looms our big reunion show, with all my friends from years past coming together. There's so much excitement about it, haven't felt this level of expectation for a long, long time. one thing could call it off though- our buddy steve, he organized it all, his uncle has now developed lung cancer. God damn fucking cancer. it's everywhere and i'm getting really sick of it ruining people's cheerfulness. he's usually an upbeat guy, changed a lot in recent years but he was pretty struck over this incident. his uncle is his dad in a lot of ways to him, his dad having passed away some years ago. and he is thinking of flying to scotland to see him in case this could be it for him. I talked to him for a good bit yesterday and fully support him if he needs to leave the country to be with family. it will effectively cancel the reunion but we can always do it again- besides wouldn't be the same without steve there. so we're waiting on that news.

work is dragging today, have way too much on my mind, feels like i'm wasting valuable time being here, but i'm not- this is how we get money to keep the house and live i'm just not in the mood to work with everything hanging over us right now. guess that's enough